Its again one of those nights when there is a lot of work pending, but I just feel like working. I can't sleep because I don't find on good reason to sleep as early as 00:00 hrs. And the deadlines still do not inspire me to work. All, I want now is a life with as little complexity as possible.

Life when I could take everything on face value, not judge them a million times. And I also have this very recent desire, I do not want to be made to feel like a fool every single time I actually bother about something. Bleargh. I just give up.

I just want a little teddy, who I could talk to, I could play with, I could cling on to at nights... I sound like a two year old, but not like I care. A pillow is not always enough. Even the best of times can get tough when they become too good. I know there will not be a fall, but just in case...